When I was working, I missed alot of the Red Flags about my spouse’s personality
Things about my spouse – Things about his personality
Things that are SO PAINFULLY OBVIOUS TO ME NOW
Things about my spouse and his personality that didn’t seem concerning to me back then
Things about my spouse’s personality that never seemed DANGEROUS to me back then
Things about my spouse’s personality that I would constantly DISMISS as “MY ISSUES” and not his – I actually went into therapy because I believed I WAS THE ISSUE in our marriage
THINGS I WOULD DISMISS ABOUT MY SPOUSE’S PERSONALITY – THAT ARE OBVIOUS – TO ME – NOW
Things about my spouse’s personality THAT PROVE HE IS A SOCIOPATH – A NARCISSIST – A GASLIGHTER
The things about my spouse’s personality that ended up PUTTING MY LIFE IN DANGER – MORE THAN ONCE – FOR OVER 2 YEARS STRAIGHT
The things about my spouse’s personality that CONTINUE TO PUT MY LIFE IN DANGER – EVERY. SINGLE. DAY.
The things about my spouse’s personality that revealed the MONSTER THAT MY SPOUSE IS AND ALWAYS WAS
This MONSTER – The ANCHOR FACE of DEATH – Who is STILL A DANGER to ME TODAY – As I TYPE this
The MONSTER – The ANCHOR FACE of DEATH that CONTINUES to STALK ME and HARRASS ME
The MONSTER – The ANCHOR FACE of DEATH that CONTINUES to MAKE MY LIFE A LIVING HELL because HE GETS A CHEAP THRILL FROM IT
I was so painfully unaware, blaming myself and my mommy and daddy issues for being triggered by him
The MONSTER – the ANCHOR FACE of DEATH I Married
I am literally blaming the RED FLAGS SLAPPING ME IN THE FACE – on my MOM – in this journal entry
It’s painful to look back at – to see how blind I was – to NOT see how my SPOUSE WOULD ABUSE BOTH ME AND MY MOTHER
This Monster – the ANCHOR FACE of DEATH I married – Would CAPITALIZE on how OBLIVIOUS I was to his sinister INTENTIONS
It’s hard not to blame myself for missing all of the “obvious” signs now – but a friend recently reminded me of something – “You can’t see the entire picture when you’re in the middle of it”
I am so incredibly grateful for the support system, the women I have in my life
Some of these women that have been through similar situations, and some that have not
Without these women, I don’t know where I’d be today
And as much as I HATE WHERE MY LIFE IS TODAY
I am so incredibly grateful to be free from the MONSTER – the ANCHOR FACE of DEATH I married
I am so incredibly grateful to be surrounded by the strong, supportive women I have found my safety and clarity with
I am so incredibly grateful to be surrounded by these women, MY FRIENDS – as I continue to navigate the Mind F&%K of marrying a Monster & ANCHOR FACE of DEATH
BE CAREFUL WHO YOU TRUST WITH YOUR LIFE, IT MIGHT COST YOU EXACTLY THAT – thank you for reading XOXO Launa
The story as told in the podcast, social media accounts, and on the website is based on my understanding and perspective, and should not be interpreted as factual claims about any individual or entity without further verification. The names and places have been changed or left cryptic to protect the accused . My name has also been changed to protect myself from my ex as he continues to drag out the divorce process – a divorce he filed for – in court
December 13, 2022
I’m triggered when my husband shares with me that he doesn’t have appointments at work. It makes me immediately feel as though I’m not pulling my own weight – that I’m not doing enough
Is it because my mom always shared her adult struggles with me – HER CHILD
We were poor
We didn’t have insurance
Mom couldn’t/wouldn’t take work off for me – is cost too much money
I hate being late because she always made me late
